Band has always been a fun part of life, but yesterday, I just suddenly felt depressed about band. Like Sam, I really wish that Wanjing never quit band, so that I would never have had to change sections. My trombone-playing sucks, Xinyi is way better than me and I'm afraid Yufei and Bingrui too. How can I be a direct when I play worse than my junior? And even if I go back to the euphos now, I'll also be much worse than Sam and maybe even Amanda. I feel torn between two sections now, neither belonging to this nor that. And the worst thing is knowing I may not be able to take part in elections next year, nor SYF'09, nor Farewell'09. How will I feel if all my batchmates have a role in band, while I do not, and having to endure that for half a year?Really, if I quit band or go away now, it may not cause so much pain for me in the near future. I still love band and my section and Sam, and I still enjoy it, but it's becoming a heartache.
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